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ADVICE NEEDED

Ok, here it is my long over due story. As you all know, I graudated from 8th grade a few days ago. Well on Friday there was a party. This as the last time I'd ever throught I would see some people, like Max. Max is this boy who I've liked on and off for 4 years. I've danced with him, sort of gone out with him, kissed him on the check twice, and asked him out. Now at this party because I tthough this would be the last time I'd ever see him, that I woud finally kiss him. I'd been talking to my friend about it for about two weeks or so, so I was ready. Untill the totally unexected happened. My other 'friend' Marie bean sobbing becase she'd had a 'secrat crush' on Max for two years or something. Now Marie thinks shes all goth and emo but she was wearing a bright orange dress with a pink and green bag. I'd neer seen her cry before and she'd never shown any interest in guys before. In fact, she'd never even shown a desire to be friends wih Max. What I'm trying to say is this came totally out of the blue, and that I had no idea Marie had feelings for him. See my problem? What would you have done?
Anyway, to make a long story short Max and I stood behind a bush and talked about things. I ended up crying, nd makeing a stupid promise that I have all ready broken.
"I would never call you, talk to you, IM you, or e-mail you if you'd just et me go through with this."
" Would you rather I kiss you now ad we never talk again, or would you rather I not kiss you and we keep in touch?" I was dead silent. I just didn't know what to do.
" I'm gong to be totally honest with you, I want to kiss you."
After that we talke for few more minutes and then he said the most wonderious words I've ever heard.
" Close your eyes."
I did and I felt his lips on mine. Then he was gone. What could I do but cry? Cried for my gain and my loss. Cried for closure but yet opening. Cried for my perfect moonlight kiss, like the one I'd alsways dreamed about.

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Ironicly I saw Max today at the pool. We talked and it was as normal as it's going to get for now. We hugged and he was gone. " Try to say goodbye and I choke, try to walk away and I stumble..."